Thursday, 19 March 2009

• Currently Spirit By Eluveitie The Endless Knot see related

  On the verge of pandemonium

  Last week was the most dreadful week I've ever experienced.

  I had a really important issue I needed to discuss with M and it was an issue that could break us up for good.  I regret doing it but I was young, immature and stupidity got the best of me.  By the way, if you're thinking I cheated on him...no, I didn't.  Nothing of that sort, but it was something big. 

  I had written him an e-mail, it was like a novel, telling him how sorry I was and how much I regretted doing the thing I did in hopes of him understanding at least slightly why I did it but I had no sympathies from him what-so-ever.  I know, an e-mail, psh.  But I suck at confrontations and he lives hours away from me.  I couldn't do it over the phone because of how emotional I would get, and he wouldn't understand me one bit.  Anyway, he read the email and I was waiting insanely patient until he finally responded with, "How could you do this to me?"  Those 7 words hit me hard and I mean, it knocked me out.  We talked for a little bit, well, actually, he talked and I just listened.  He told me how upset he was and how I could've done this to him and he went on and on all the while I, on the other end, was weeping my eyes dry.  He told me he needed time to think it over.  I hated how much I hurt him and it was painful for the next 3 days. 

  He had to think over things and I gave him his space.  I slept only 7 hours total in 3 days, I didn't eat very much which resulted in me losing 5 pounds, each day I woke up with swollen eyes from the hardcore crying I did the previous night and it was just terrible. 

  This guy meant the whole world to me and I could lose him forever over something stupid...

  *Again, I did NOT cheat on him*

  Sunday night, we talked over the phone about it, he decided to give me a second chance.  I know I lost his trust but I'm ready to work as hard as I possibly can to gain it all back.  And now, we're all good. 

  He's coming up in May to meet my parents and eat at my parents' restaurant which he's been wanting to do.

  All is well.  I consider myself to be the luckiest girl in the world.  I'm so thankful to have met him.

  Have you ever done anything that lost your SO's trust?
  How did he/she react to the situation?
  Did he/she forgive you right away?  Or did they need time to think about it?
  Did he/she hold a grudge against you because of the issue?
  Are you guys still together?  If not, was it because of the issue?

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