I recently made a big decision in my life.

I decided that I could no longer take the old traditional college learning so I'm enrolling in a career institute. Learn what I need to and start working.

The traditional college was a waste of my time and money. The nursing program actually only takes 2 years to complete when you get into it, but the prereqs are what gets ya. I was taking HISTORY classes and for what? Who the hell knows. It has absolutely NOTHING to do with nursing and it was absolutely unnecessary.

The program at the institute will only take exactly a year to complete, after that, I can go take the test, pass it, and get my license, and BAM. All done

It's gonna be a hell of a lot of work but I'm ready. Mon.-Fri., 8-5 classes =/ Yikes... That's a full time job right there.

Hopefully the year will go by fast and I'll be done before I know it. After the year and after I get my license, I'll be able to move down with my bf and start our lives as a normal couple...finally!
Anyway...

Fourth of July!

I took more videos than I did pictures soooo...
The first one is still my favorite! 

 Enjoy

Last week was the most dreadful week I've ever experienced.

I had a really important issue I needed to discuss with M and it was an issue that could break us up for good.  I regret doing it but I was young, immature and stupidity got the best of me.  By the way, if you're thinking I cheated on him...no, I didn't.  Nothing of that sort, but it was something big. 

I had written him an e-mail, it was like a novel, telling him how sorry I was and how much I regretted doing the thing I did in hopes of him understanding at least slightly why I did it but I had no sympathies from him what-so-ever.  I know, an e-mail, psh.  But I suck at confrontations and he lives hours away from me.  I couldn't do it over the phone because of how emotional I would get, and he wouldn't understand me one bit.  Anyway, he read the email and I was waiting insanely patient until he finally responded with, "How could you do this to me?"  Those 7 words hit me hard and I mean, it knocked me out.  We talked for a little bit, well, actually, he talked and I just listened.  He told me how upset he was and how I could've done this to him and he went on and on all the while I, on the other end, was weeping my eyes dry.  He told me he needed time to think it over.  I hated how much I hurt him and it was painful for the next 3 days. 

He had to think over things and I gave him his space.  I slept only 7 hours total in 3 days, I didn't eat very much which resulted in me losing 5 pounds, each day I woke up with swollen eyes from the hardcore crying I did the previous night and it was just terrible. 

This guy meant the whole world to me and I could lose him forever over something stupid...

*Again, I did NOT cheat on him*

Sunday night, we talked over the phone about it, he decided to give me a second chance.  I know I lost his trust but I'm ready to work as hard as I possibly can to gain it all back.  And now, we're all good. 

He's coming up in May to meet my parents and eat at my parents' restaurant which he's been wanting to do.

All is well.  I consider myself to be the luckiest girl in the world.  I'm so thankful to have met him.

Have you ever done anything that lost your SO's trust?
How did he/she react to the situation?
Did he/she forgive you right away?  Or did they need time to think about it?
Did he/she hold a grudge against you because of the issue?
Are you guys still together?  If not, was it because of the issue?

I'll be seeing my love in less than a week!    I am super excited.  This is also the shortest time in between visits we ever had.  The longest...8 months!  Yikes...never letting that happen again.

Moving along, I saw on the news a couple of days ago that in UK they banned kissing in the rail stations.  They have kissing and no kissing zones; like the US have smoking and non-smoking areas.  They decided to do such a thing because couples were taking too long to say goodbye and backing up traffic.  I found it rather humorous.

What do you think?
Would you be okay with limiting your kissing areas?

I, for one, would like to be able to kiss my SO whenever I'd like and wherever I'd like.  I'm not saying a whole make-out session would be appropriate but just a peck or a few.

One of my friends was hanging out in my room today and we were just talking and the subject of my long distance relationship came up.

Him: Are you still with that one guy?

Me: Yeah, been a year and 9 months.

Him: Aren't you ever worried about him?

Me: Huh?

Him: Are you ever worried about him cheating on you since you guys are so far away from each other?

Me: No, never.

Him: Really?

Me: Yeah, we've built a really strong trust between us, I trust him whole-heartedly.  I have nothing to worry about.

Him: Wow, I don't know how you do it but that's awesome.

Yeah...I was worried about him during the very beginning of our relationship.  It was my first serious long distance relationship and yeah, I had trust issues...big time.  I kept all my feelings in because deep down I knew that I could trust him but my mind wouldn't let me.  I don't know, it was all so confusing at that stage.

I didn't quickly adjust, but I knew I had to.  He had given me no reason not to trust him so it would be unfair for him if I kept assuming that he was doing something unfaithful.

I'm really glad I changed, I didn't want to be that psycho girlfriend who had to keep tabs on my guy's every move (which would be already difficult because of the distance (not saying I would anyways)). 

Even though we've talked for 5 years beforehand, it was different when you were finally in a relationship and exclusive.  He always talked about his then-girlfriends and towards the end, I felt jealous, because I had already developed feelings for this guy. 

All I have to say is...I am the luckiest girl alive.

Trust, honesty, loyalty, responsibility, faithfulness, communication, and the desire to work on any and all problems will help create the best relationship for you; among many other things.  Those are just the most important to work on if you lack any.